Yesterday I did something terrifying and fantastic. I resigned from my steady job at a steady company where I have been working for 15 years, without another job to go to. I am going to take a leap into the great unknown! I trained in Computer Science, fell into Technical Writing and tripped into Marketing.
Cool exit date
I have given 30 days notice and my exit date is Friday is the 13th of May. Did you notice that? FRIDAY in conjunction with the NUMBER 13! I am not superstitious but I have to admit that the date gave me a thrill.
My husband Marty is a programmer who has been showing our 17 yo son Michael the world of computers and programming. Marty quit work 6 years ago to start writing apps, but as it coincided with Michael being diagnosed with Aspergers, he kinda became a teacher instead.
I always felt that given our collected skills our little family should be able to make stuff to sell on the Internet, and have a little earner in the background to keep us going in our old age. I want to make that happen, and I can’t do that while working full-time for someone else.
A scary jump
Last year, I visited the Great Barrier Reef with my friend Aaron. We got there by boat with an upper deck, and people were jumping into the water from there, screaming and having fun. Aaron and I thought it would be fun to try.
I stood outside the railing and told my body to jump. I wanted to. It looked fun. And cool. And exciting. And also a long way down. Much higher than the edge of the local pool. “Jump!”, said my brain. My fingers clung on for dear life. “Just jump, dammit!” My fingers did not obey my brain. They had developed a mind of their own.
Aaron decided to show me how it was done, and jumped down easily. I watched him and a thrilling sensation of fear and exhilaration passed through me, but mostly FEAR. I don’t know how my body obeys when I tell it to get up and go to the kitchen, it just does. So when my body did nothing, I didn’t know how to make it obey. I was dithered so much, Aaron had to climbed back on the boat and to the top deck and explain again how easy it was. He demonstrated by jumping again. I dithered some more. A lot more.
Then. I. Jumped. I screamed all the way down, which felt like infinity and also just an instant. Then I splashed into the warm water. I spluttered and spat and gasped. OMG. I was alive, and fine. It was a huge thrill – but I didn’t go again.
Jumping into a new life
This time I am jumping off my safe job-boat into the unknown-waters, and it is the scariest jump of my life.
I am hoping that it will be like my jump down to the warm waters of the Great Barrier Reef from the upper deck of a boat. High enough but not too high. Scary but doable.
My heart tells me to have faith. My head tell me I’m an idiot. My heart won and I let go of the railing yesterday. Today I am full of hope and joy. It feels right even though I know it is so illogical and just utter rubbish. But I am going with my heart.
This blog will document my journey into the Great Unknown. I don’t know what will happen. Will I sink or swim? Will there be friendly dolphins below or deadly sharks? Will I run out of money? Will I cry or laugh? Am I too old to reinvent myself? Who knows?
Follow me and find out.